When I start going down a road of anger and wishing horrible things upon someone, or cursing them in my head and heart, I am judging them. I put myself in a higher place.
Today I got really angry. I started resenting a certain person in my life. Then I started praying, asking God for help. Then I heard a small voice inside my head tell me that I am cursing myself when I curse another. I had never thought of that before. I asked God how and why?
The gentle answer explained that when I start going down a road of anger and wishing horrible things upon someone, or cursing them in my head and heart, I am judging them. I put myself in a higher place. Putting myself in that higher place puts me in a place of more judgement and pressure to perform. I start to step outside of that place I so desperately need-grace.
So, after shifting mindsets-I consciously moved back into grace. Love. And humility. I started to bless this person. I spoke forgiveness out loud and then asked God to help me. Give me wisdom, help, and show me how to move forward.
Blessings and curses. I desire to walk in God's favor, love and kindness. As I get older it feels like more and more work to keep a tender heart.